Apr 7, 2010

I'm still alive...

I just wanted to write a quick blog to let everyone know....I'm still alive. My last post was on January 11, 2010 which was my first day of student teaching.

Little did I know that day, that it would consume my life completely!! I felt like I had just stepped into a different mode, a teacher mode and I haven't been in Cicily mode for a while. I'm not gonna lie. This has been one of the hardest experiences of my life. Maybe I'm just a stress-case, but I think that part of the problem is that I'm a perfectionist and want everything to always go right, but let me tell ya, as a teacher, there is always something that is not going to be perfect. On top of preparing lesson plans and writing a 50 page Teacher Work Sample, I have an Online English class that I'm struggling to get done in time. Not to mention that Cole is going to BYU-I in 2 weeks so right when I am done we are moving to Idaho Falls and we don't have jobs or a place to live......Oh gees.

Although this has been an extremely hard experience, I definitely have grown closer to my Heavenly Father. I think I've said more little mini prayers than I ever had in my life in the last 4 months. I feel bad for my husband more than anything. He is probably more ready for me to be done than I am. He is so great though and gives me pep talks all the time. I love him sooooo much and don't think I could do this with out him.

Well somebody call the waaaambulance right? I'm sorry for the negative post. I'm trying to find the joy in the journey. Elder Worthlin said, "Come what may and love it". So I'm trying my best to do this.

BUT, I only have 3 weeks left and then I'll be done with school forever and ever!! Then I'll be on to the apartment and job hunt.

I love you all and think about everyone all the time. Next time I post it will probably be graduation pics. YIPPEE!!!

6 comments:

  1. Hang in there! You're doing great, I'm sure!!!! :)

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  2. Wish I could be there to take you out to lunch or a pedi or something! Love you girl! Hang in there. I'm proud of you.

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  3. CICIWEE!!! u are so awesome!!! I heart you sooo much!!!! Can't wait for you to be closer to me!!! Keep trucking girl! you got it in the bag!

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  4. YOU GUYS ARE MOVING?! Which means I am going to have to get another visiting teaching comp to NOT go visiting with?! Haha :)

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  5. Hurray!!!! Graduation will be here before you know it! And moving, and new jobs, more school, And then BABIES !!:)... and getting up to feed those babies at one in the morning and posting a comment on your friends' blog at 1:25 in the morning!!! He He:) You were always such a good student Cicily, I bet you are the BEST student TEACHER EVER!!!! really! I miss you girl:) check out the Park Place Apartments. they were fairly cheap and large two beds like a block away from the temple. we really liked it their. quiet and felt safe. or their were some right behind Reeds Dairy area that was our second pick:) Good luck!!!

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  6. You are going to be a great teacher. It gets easier with experience.

    Early congrats on finishing.

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