I just wanted to write a quick blog to let everyone know....I'm still alive. My last post was on January 11, 2010 which was my first day of student teaching.
Little did I know that day, that it would consume my life completely!! I felt like I had just stepped into a different mode, a teacher mode and I haven't been in Cicily mode for a while. I'm not gonna lie. This has been one of the hardest experiences of my life. Maybe I'm just a stress-case, but I think that part of the problem is that I'm a perfectionist and want everything to always go right, but let me tell ya, as a teacher, there is always something that is not going to be perfect. On top of preparing lesson plans and writing a 50 page Teacher Work Sample, I have an Online English class that I'm struggling to get done in time. Not to mention that Cole is going to BYU-I in 2 weeks so right when I am done we are moving to Idaho Falls and we don't have jobs or a place to live......Oh gees.
Although this has been an extremely hard experience, I definitely have grown closer to my Heavenly Father. I think I've said more little mini prayers than I ever had in my life in the last 4 months. I feel bad for my husband more than anything. He is probably more ready for me to be done than I am. He is so great though and gives me pep talks all the time. I love him sooooo much and don't think I could do this with out him.
Well somebody call the waaaambulance right? I'm sorry for the negative post. I'm trying to find the joy in the journey. Elder Worthlin said, "Come what may and love it". So I'm trying my best to do this.
BUT, I only have 3 weeks left and then I'll be done with school forever and ever!! Then I'll be on to the apartment and job hunt.
I love you all and think about everyone all the time. Next time I post it will probably be graduation pics. YIPPEE!!!
ANYONE....